1.0Vicky Goodenhttp://www.vickygooden.comvickygoodenhttp://www.vickygooden.com/index.php/author/vickygooden/rich600338<blockquote class="wp-embedded-content" data-secret="RlzCQIPpl4"><a href="http://www.vickygooden.com/index.php/2018/11/20/subfertility-motherhood-timeline/">My subfertility to motherhood timeline</a></blockquote><iframe sandbox="allow-scripts" security="restricted" src="http://www.vickygooden.com/index.php/2018/11/20/subfertility-motherhood-timeline/embed/#?secret=RlzCQIPpl4" width="600" height="338" title="“My subfertility to motherhood timeline” — Vicky Gooden" data-secret="RlzCQIPpl4" frameborder="0" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" scrolling="no" class="wp-embedded-content"></iframe><script> /*! This file is auto-generated */ !function(d,l){"use strict";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&"undefined"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!/[^a-zA-Z0-9]/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret="'+t.secret+'"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret="'+t.secret+'"]'),c=new RegExp("^https?:$","i"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display="none";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute("style"),"height"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):"link"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute("src")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener("message",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener("DOMContentLoaded",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll("iframe.wp-embedded-content"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute("data-secret"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+="#?secret="+t,e.setAttribute("data-secret",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:"ready",secret:t},"*")},!1)))}(window,document); //# sourceURL=http://www.vickygooden.com/wp-includes/js/wp-embed.min.js </script> http://www.vickygooden.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/11/IMG_0501-1024x473.jpg1024473Our baby was about 4 years in the making, from the start of trying naturally to her doing newborn little lamb cries in our arms. And for some, that’s absolutely nothing. I was never told I was, we were ‘infertile’ as such but post a surprising diagnosis of endometriosis, never being pregnant naturally and once ‘cleaned up’ inside after endo surgery still not getting pregnant without IVF intervention, at times it looked pretty bleak. So many moments along the way have left me thinking ‘no way, this isn’t happening to us?’ as buzzing worries in my head would ricochet from one side of my brain to the other, slamming into one another before shattering and multiplying in to even more. What if I can never have kids? This was the ultimate concern. The unthinkable. I had never ever contemplated that this would be an issue for us. I was convinced I was super fertile through my sheer longing to be a mum ‘one day’ alone. The plan (my plan) was to have two and adopt one. ‘When we have kids / when I’m a mum / when you’re a dad’ were common conversation starters. Long before trying to conceive I […]